Okay, i haven't finished my Day 5 post of my adventure last week. What i've posted so far are drafts. It's difficult to blog using my phone. My laptop misses me. Today was supposed to be the day that i finished all the 5 posts, plus pictures. But i just received a not so very nice bit of information, and i walked out.
I have the tendency to walk out when i get bad news about anything. When my emotions are sky-high, i am most likely to walk away. Most likely, anyway. I have my moments of being confrontational, but at times i just run away. Maybe because i don't want people to see my angry face or crying face. Or maybe i'm just scared of what i would do if i didn't step away to think. I could've been in a lot of trouble.
But there are also downsides of walking away. Sometimes, i don't look back and just leave. With that, there maybe buts of information that i leave out. Or don't hear at all. A few times, i guess, i'm just scared of knowing that i was right and the other party really did something wrong that i did not like.
I have walked away from companies that i thought was not for me. After that, it took me a long time to find the right one, because i felt so high and mighty. I have walked away from friends that i considered unhealthy for me without properly addressing my issues. And it may be too late to let them hear me out.
I walked away from God. Look where that got me. I was lost in intoxication. I believed all the lies that were spread in the world. I engaged in activities that were impure and worldly. I thought i was above and beyond what others were. I believed my success was solely because of me.
But this time, i'm looking back. And right by the time that i decided to face the Lord again, He was just there, walking after me.
Right now, i'm walking away from all the bad things that i've done. I'm completely surrendering myself to His call. I have walked miles and miles away from God not knowing He was just there. Waiting to welcome me back with open arms. I've experienced all that was bad. It's time to put them in jars and let them remain there. I can not afford to walk away from Him again. He does not deserve that after all that i've been blessed with.